accept the truth of his death in feeling as well as in reason. Nevertheless, every time midnight drew near, dread always expanded in my heart because the legend about the return of a soul flashed into my brain. I was sorry to have that dread, but I could not restrain it at all.

His death also gave me many nightmares, in which he always appeared in dire forms. In a dream, I was frightened by his green and pale face twice its normal size showing outside of our window and presenting the desire to come in. In another dream, when I came out of the toilet, his poker face suddenly emerged from underground and surrounded my feet, which made cold perspiration seep out of my pores. Once I dreamed he was resurrected for a period of time, but he needed to report his arrival to the Lord of Hell at the end of the time. In addition, I dreamed I was curious to open a gunny sack, which did not belong to us, and found my grandfather's corpse inside.

my grandfather took care of us like a mother and cultivated us like a father. I can never stop missing him, but I was really frightened by the manner of his death.

这是一个寒冷的冬日夜晚刺耳。在墙壁上的时钟刚刚抚摸三。突然，电话铃响了screechily。吓坏了这个看似不祥的环，每个人都在我的叔叔与剧烈跳动的心唤醒。从电话线的另一端，我的兄弟宣布抽泣着令人惊讶的消息：我的祖父曾上吊自杀。空在我的脑子和损失，我赶回故乡与我的叔叔和我的妹妹。拉欣到我家，我看到我的祖父的棉被覆盖他的整个身体。也许是因为他死的方式，他的死让我想不通，他的思想，但他更害怕。

在第一年，他去世后，失去的东西，立即打我，只要我回家的感觉。强烈希望再次见到他紧紧抓住我。我不能接受的感情以及原因，他的死亡真相。不过，每次临近午夜，始终在我心中扩大，因为对传奇的灵魂回归到我的脑子闪过恐惧。我很遗憾地说害怕，但我无法抑制它。

他的死也给了我很多噩梦，他总是可怕的形式出现。在梦中，我被吓坏了他的绿色和苍白的脸正常大小的两倍，显示我们的窗口外，并提出今后的愿望只有在另一个梦想，当我从厕所出来，他的扑克脸突然从地下出现包围我的脚，这使我出冷汗毛孔渗出。有一次，我梦见他是为在一段时间内复活，但是他需要报告的时间结束，他抵达到地狱主。此外，我梦见我很好奇，打开一个麻袋，这不属于我们，找到了我祖父的尸体内。

我的祖父了照顾我们就像一个母亲和培养我们的父亲一样。我永远不能停止想念他，但我确实是他的死亡方式害怕。